A few random tidbits
Sam wanted me to buy him a caramel apple called Tiger tail or something like that and I told him I didn't think he would like it. He is very persistent and always knows he is right so that is the one he chose. So we are driving along after giving him a piece and in the back I hear "blech, more like tiger guts"! I said "didn't I tell you that you wouldn't like it and now look you don't like it, maybe next time you should listen to me when i tell you something" He replied "mom, it's like you think you are the boss of the world!" He informed me later that I was only kinda right because he liked the "skin" of the apple. The "skin" being the caramel.
Last night I was helping Logan w/his scout book to pass off some things he can do at home and we were doing the section about tobacco/drugs/alchohol and there is a section about inhalants. He told Ella that Smencils are drugs and then pretends to be smelling a smencil for a while and then starts gyrating around saying "gimme some enchiladas". I'm not sure that he even knows that little detail about pot and the munchies but it was so funny and Ella started giggling like crazy. I think they all may have been tired including me because I found it a little too humorous myself.
Ella has a red bear that they fondly nicknamed "bloody bear" that is missing an eye. So Sam got a new bear from preschool yesterday from his teachers and he was making me guess what he got. I guessed four things and he said "one more guess" so I said a stuffed animal and he said "well mom you just can't guess that" so I guessed something else. He then pulls out this red bear and says "This is bloody bear jr." So, we now have two dolls that are Elbow and Elbow Jr. and 2 bears, Bloody bear and bloody bear Jr. I guess at least none of these odd named toys will ever be lonely.
Yeah pretty much this post is to just avoid all the things I really should be doing right now.
so just to stay off track for a few more minutes I am going to do something totally out of character for me.
I'm going to brag. Ok not really but for the first time in a very long time or ever I am letting myself be proud of myself . I am sure I have mentioned before that I have a little thing called PCOS which I found out after struggling to have all of my kids. I had mentioned all of my symptoms to many different OBGYNs and not until I went back to my awesome internal medicine Dr. did someone finally take my word for it and experiment w/some PCOS drugs to see if there was remedy for any of my problems. Sure enough 25 lbs quickly disappeared from my body which I more than deserved w/the amount of exercise I do and have done since having Logan. I also started functioning properly as a real "female" instead of half male (I will leave it at that........and your welcome). I think now that we are done having kids I would probably get pregnant really easily which is annoying but whatever it is what it is. So anyway I started feeling good again and like myself so I really started pushing myself physically but still being careful not to re-injure my legs. I took my measurements yesterday......gag.....but in total (i am going to be proud rather than embarrassed of what was) I have lost 30.3 inches in circumference on my body. Some of it is not circumference loss that husbands would be happy about but loss none the less. I have lost 48 lbs and I have worked very hard for it. 2 yrs were working hard w/out a pound lost because of PCOS...in fact I gained during that time. Don't get me wrong, it was not all about the disease. Some of it was poor eating but it is just amazing to me how once you get the machine running right it is a lot more forgiving about your bad days of eating.
I have been getting many compliments lately about losing weight and while it makes me feel good that other people can see that I look better it also makes me very uncomfortable. I think I would rather no one say anything w/how embarrassed it makes me feel but I do think it is kind of people to be aware of those around them and their efforts. Does that make sense? It is funny that I feel that way since I try to always notice and compliment people for weight loss because I know how daunting it can be.
Anyway I have just thought a lot lately about how I think so many people are vain and it bugs the crap out of me and then I realized how vain I have been all these years not feeling good enough or like I am somehow not a good person because I am overweight and I constantly think about my appearance w/unhappiness. I am working on that so I can continue on my judgements of other people w/a clear conscience (;
So my point in this long long drawn out blah blah is that I am choosing now to be proud of my hard work and I feel good about my efforts and I feel healthy and well and that feels so nice.
If only I had documented the # of gallons of sweat, since most of my effort was exercise and not much altering in food. I have completely worn out 3 machines and I feel good about that.
I am officially patting myself on the back and I don't want to talk about it again even though I'm not quite done losing.
I have to say in all this though that it is wonderful to have a husband like Dave who has never ever made me feel like I was any different no matter my weight or state of mind. I don't know if he is just oblivious or if he is just too nice but either way I am glad he is the way he is. I couldn't have handled one more person besides myself being critical of me. I sometimes like to act like I don't care but in reality I care a little too much sometimes.
Friday, February 11, 2011
A few random tidbits
Posted by Hendricksonblog at 8:54 AM