Tuesday, June 30, 2015

All the live long day!

Old unpublished post.
I'm working a lot and don't have as much free time as I used to
Maybe one day I'll get my crap together.
What I wouldn't give for some snow today
Or a snow cone
Sledding is Hazardous to the health

Sunday, January 11, 2015

Small, small, small

Christmas 2014
Santa Adam came to Christmas Eve this year

Ella looks like a deranged Mrs. Claus
 I think this is hands down my favorite night of the year
Dave made ribs and I ran around like a chicken with my head cut off searching for a certain size of frame for some Christmas eve gifts I wanted to give our parents.  I swear every year I put something off until the end and have to do this.  I'm not too much of a procrastinator so I'm not sure why.
I'm not sure the grandparents want to claim the boys
 Sammy's Santa Gifts
Poor kid has birthday and Christmas in the Winter
He got a soccer goal and roller blades
 Neve's Santa stuff
 Ella didn't ask for anything so hers was most surprising 
and fun to see her get
I got the idea for the Ukelele from her cousin Daphne
 Logan is getting very teenish and boring to buy for....
did I mention expensive too?
 Carri came to join us for opening gifts and breakfast.  
I mentioned I don't have a gravy boat so she got me three.  
Thats how she rolls.   
In fairness, she always asks me what kind of mascara is the best so 
I got her like 6 kinds.
 Dave was so cute helping Ella learn to play her Ukelele
 This is most certainly a fire hazard at my Moms on christmas.  
Claustrophobia hazard for sure. 
 Sadly there is not a ceiling fan in this room to launch the 
wadded up paper at, and no uncle Kerry to start it out.
 I'm always grateful for parents but I feel especially grateful this year for Mine and Dave's parents and for family that has chosen to do so much for us.   It's been a rough year but I have learned a lot and grown a lot and am now doing well with a little help from my blue friends.
 The Hendrickson house would most likely have a more orderly fire escape routine
 Logans Christmas present to G-ma and G-pa is a rare one.   
He's a hugger just like his Mom.
 This is seriously one of my favorite gifts this year.
This is Rudolph drawn by Neve
 And this is the other one of my fav's
A Paperweight melting snowman made of a rock and 
a ping pong ball from Sam
I'm pretty easy to please
I also let Logan experience what Mom's often do
I gave him a puzzle even though he hates puzzles so I could do it because I love them.
Remind any Mom's out there of getting kitchen appliances and vacuums for gifts?
LOL   I actually like those gifts though but some Mom's get mad.

The mild winter weather so far at least has given Sam ample time to break in his new blades and Neve finally ventured outdoors with her Birthday skates which have only been ridden around and around my kitchen.  Soon spring will come and her 2nd light up wheel scooter can make its way out of my kitchen too.   Island bars make great natural skating rink area.

No expression, no expression

I think this is the longest stretch I've ever gone without blogging.  It got to be longer and longer and it felt daunting.  I was in no mental state to blog anyway without being a Debbie Downer (no offense to any Debbie's out there, it's just a saying)
True to form, 4 months post miscarriage my hormones shifted and I took a pretty rough turn for the worse.  I was already not in great shape so this time has been a doozy.
I tried to power through for months since I had been off anti anxiety/depression drugs for about nine months but my imbalance was winning the fight that no amount of deep breathing could fix.   
I spent the day before Halloween bawling ALL day and Dave thought I had lost it when I finally told him I was literally crying about nothing and needed to go back on medication.   I think he was relieved that he wasn't doomed to spend the rest of his days with a lunatic.  
 I'm not weird or too proud to take medication but I was sad that I had worked my way off of it and had to bite the bullet and go back on.  This time I knew depression was the culprit but I noticed anxiety creeping in too so it was a double whammy and my low dose couldn't cut it.  I'm now at a good dose and am starting to feel hopeful and positive again.  So here I am back to blogging which releases stress and makes me feel somehow like I'm accomplishing something  since I suck at a personal journal.
So way back on October 26th, Neve turned 6
she started talking like a baby around that time too which hopefully goes away soon
This is what I call exuberant gift opening
Grandma and Grandpa surprised all the grandkids by showing up at Neve's birthday party straight home from their mission.  You will be surprised to know that Ella cried.  She's so cute!
Why would you post a smiling pic when you can have this!
since Neve had sent this saying on all her letters to them for 18 months, Heather had a fun idea to make Neve a shirt with a copy of one of her many notes to them.  It is now her favorite pajama shirt and all her others rarely come out of the drawer

Halloween 2014

Halloween came and went with not much fanfare which is sad because its my second favorite Holiday.  I tried to will myself to do an adult party but I just didn't have it in me.
I wanted Sammy to be a Pinata
I hadn't realized how much work this costume would be
but he loved it and so did I.  Who knew he would constantly be threatened with a bat.
Ella did a little Ninja turtle thing with Kylee and Brin
I had all these cute Ideas for Neve but all she wanted to be was a Pink Batgirl
and NOT one with a tutu
 Logan is too cool for Halloween now so it looks like I only have 3 kids.  Oh well, less people to make idiotic faces in pictures.
 My new calling is a Den leader for the Wolves.  Sam was in for 2 months but now has moved up.  These boys are fun and I am enjoying this level of busyness vs. the other level I had for the last years.  I miss my YW but it was definitely time for a change.   These happy little balls of energy are just the thing I need right now.
 I started working at the Jr. High as a Behavioral Aide, Special Ed Aide, Friday School Meanie, and to help the handicapped kids at lunch.   I'll be honest, the handicapped kids are the easiest.   I'm enjoying my job......crazy I know!   Some of these kids are total butt heads but as I find out more and more I am sad at the situations these kids come out of.  Tragic!!!   They are fun though and I am just masochistic enough to like teenagers.

Sammy turned 9 on December 21st
I hate seeing this kid grow up but I do love to hear him back talk to Dave in spanish 
without realizing he's doing it.  "No Sabe!"

I love this picture because oddly it looks like a mix of Me and his uncle Mike
Half my kids still choose the Costco cake.....fine with me.....easy! 

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